Life has been weighing heavy on my heart. 


I got a diagnosis on my hand pain that has steadily grown worse over the last couple of years. To the point where the pain takes my breath away when I grip a certain way or grab a tool and squeeze without a thought. These hands of mine might ache day in and day out but they are most happy making. 

I can’t imagine not being able to make anymore…but there will surely be a day when:


I can’t hold my file steady to make the smooth strokes.
I can’t bend the thin bezel tightly around the tiny stone.
I can’t grip the graver strong enough to push.
I can’t steady my hands to set the whisper of a diamond.
I can’t hammer the metal to my will.
I can’t hold my flame steady to guide the solder to flow.


But today, I still can. The question heavy on my heart is: For how long? 
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While I don’t have these answers, I’m trying to find my way with this news. I am struggling to understand but also grieving limitations that lurk around the corners.  I am ALSO ok. And hopeful treatments and care will allow for more time. Confusing as that seems, it’s all true, all at once.


So changes are happening. Self limits are imposed to preserve whatever time I am granted to make. I don’t really know how this will go. For now, I am grateful I am still making. That I am still A Maker.​

:: Eye Heart U ::


Hi. I know it’s been a minute. Life keeps happening (exploding) and I decided something needed to give. A social media pause was it. It gave room for a whole slew of other things that needed to be addressed both personally and professionally. Things are happening behind the scenes over here.  Big changes (for me) are coming. I am not quite there yet, but I will be. 


Sometimes we don’t get to choose. Sometimes life chooses for you. Sometimes it’s heartbreaking. Often times it’s freeing. Sometimes it’s both.


There is a deep rooted feeling of being in the mid 50’s that you somehow have got things figured out. Yes, the experiences are more vast and varied for most. So that gives you a certain sense of power and confidence. Knowledge to make better decisions for YOU.


Yet with that feeling there comes this veil of invisibility. Feeling insignificant and irrelevant. Both as a person and professional. What happened to when the experienced artist was revered for their knowledge and skills? It is now a world where quick 5 minute knowledge is two clicks away and the sage becomes shoved aside.


I am trying to say the struggle is challenging me. To my very creative and passionate being. I want to keep on creating art and continue to share my knowledge and skills. But somedays I find it hard to feel (and be) relevant in a forest of so many other voices doing the same.


I’ve come to realize, I am a unique voice. I am the only one who can speak for me. To tell my story. To share my journey. Give to the world my jumbled expressive work. I am becoming more invisible to some. But just maybe, more clear to others that look a little deeper and find their way to see.


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